no photos today. not really much i wanna remember. and i write most of my blog post thinking no one reads it but i just linked it on my IG story so, hello people coming from instagram! this post is very depressing!
its not that i was ill prepared i should have just played my usual variety of music from the get go
i played underground hiphop stuff thinking people would give a shit but i don't think they did, so for the first 15 mins i felt i was bumbling around which resulted in me running out of track (i had more tracks, i just lost the will to live in general) and someone going "play some fucking music"- shout out to that guy, you won't remember but i will for a very long time
rue, who went before me and not throwing any shade or anything, she had a great beautiful set as always, ended at around 180 bpm people were reaaaally hyped, incl "our people". so after she was done they all left for the first 20 mins or so which compounded in this fuck up. like the booth was packed with her friends n what not and then when i got on BOOM it was empty. i thought i didn't care about that kind of stuff but i guesss i dooooo (edit 20260309-> rue told me before hand she was gonna end at ~190 or something bpm and i said yeah thats fine because in my mind underground stuff got nice hype energy but like i said nobody gaf)
anyways i switched it up and ended up playing essentially the same set i did last time aka my own remixes n what not which isn't what i wanted to do but whatever. i think people liked it. whatever whatever whatever
i left immediately after my set because it was 1hr humiliation ritual and i really hate being in the club, apologies to excultist and kegon
i think im more upset about this than usual because my SCR set is lost media (lol) and i had a recording going thinking "yeah this is redemption ! i will put it on soundcloud !" ha ha ha
anyways im gonna make more music. im a producer at the end of the day. im not a dj nor have i ever claimed to be
hope people had a good night though !